From Woe is Me to Whoa, It’s Me!
From Woe is Me to Whoa, It’s Me!
I was a woman that served as a wife, mom on top of many other hats, but even in all that…. I was broken. Broken mentally, physically and spiritually.
I wanted to find myself again, by becoming the best version of myself for myself, by enhancing and achieving balance and harmony of my mind, body and spirit.
At the time, I was struggling with my own self- identity, that meant I was taking care of everyone else around me, but not properly caring for the most important person…me. By this time, it had become so common, that it was a normality for me. I saw no wrong in it. From the outside, I looked fine, but internally I was moving and living like a shell of a person, not knowing what my next steps were. Moving about life, without real direction.
Then, one day, while getting dressed, I took a good look at myself in the mirror and I didn’t recognize who I had become! For the first time, in a long time, I FINALLY saw me! I had seen how life had just passed me by, while I’d lost myself in the shuffle.
Where and how did I let myself get this way? I knew that I had to connect where I was to where I wanted to be…and that meant connecting my “wholly” trinity of mind, body and spirit. I knew I had to shed the extra weight of past hurts, let downs and negativity that had led me to my current state. I had been unbalanced so long, but it was now time to turn the tables and take charge of my well-being. If I wanted change, I knew that it must first begin within me.
At that time, I was able to take an honest look at myself and see how I had let myself go, not just physically, but also mentally and spiritually. So, I decided to make intentional changes, starting with within. I knew that I would overcome my heart and health challenges, while internally empowering the strong woman within. I know she was there… I just had to find her again.
I’d ask myself, “How can I do that?” Because I didn’t feel the part. Well, I began to make intentional positive changes to my routine, like getting my hair and nails done, dressing up nice, rather than sweats and tees when leaving the house. I still had to deal with the matters of my heart and mind. I began to speak over myself, because I know that there is power, life and death, in what you speak. I wrote down daily affirmations and spoke them to myself, while standing in front of a mirror. I would recite the words, loud and affirmingly. At first, I did not believe what I spoke, because I had not yet fully appreciated me. But after about a week, those daily affirmations became truth. I now began to see myself differently, and not only believed what I spoke of me, but walked in its truth. I also began meditating and tackling my issues head on. One by one. This allowed me to believe that I am not my circumstances, but an overcomer of the many challenges that life had thrown my way. I refused to give up on myself. So, I began making healthier choices, exercising, meditating and journaling daily. I was killing that path of recovery and healing!
Because I believed in me, I was able to confront those that hurt me, forgive and move forward. I also took all the negative that had happened in my life and rather than let it tear me down, I now allowed it to build me up. Realizing that everything happens for a reason and understanding that what I had been through, was an action, but it was my reaction to it…that mattered.
I am a strong believer in the power of wellness. As I became a stronger and better me, I was now confident, when speaking life to others and no longer felt shame for sharing my story, because if it helped someone else get through their journey, then my story is not in vain.
When all was said and done, I was able to make positive changes in my life, completely. In the end, I was better, my family was stronger, and I now was in the driver seat of my life. I am stronger mentally, physically and spiritually, because I took the time to care for me. I used those tools to overcome my own barriers or self-worth, low self-esteem and low prioritization of self to now loving me for me…in confidence, strength and truth.
Becoming a better me has allowed me to be better for those around me and those yet to meet. I now motivate others to do the same and continue the cycle. We are all living one day at a time, so why not make it better? Let’s go!